Seeing my phone updating. I’m in bed laying. Maybe it’s time to have an upgrade. I wish there is someone out there who is ready to listen. It’s hard to open up, get comfortable and being left behind. Just like that gone. It’s hard to trust and having trust issues don’t make us believe that true love exist. Our hearts being played on. In this game of chasing, we failed to protect guarding our hearts. And this world full of lies, I hope that this men were written in books whose standards are met. Should I find one in this lifetime?

Did you know that she’s into you? Yes, you do but she’s way out of your league. She’s so much more that you think she deserves more. You never realized that you lost the diamond while you’re busy collecting stones. You always dreamed of having someone that will be with you through your ups and downs because trusting is not easy but she gives you reasons to be. You knew you love her the moment she walks away. She gets tired and in the process of loving you, she lost herself. And just like you, it’s hard to trust again. You never paid attention to her when she was still there. Now what? Regrets is haunting, right? Hope you never do that to someone who chooses and rejected other guys just to be with you. Now she’s gone and nowhere to be found. She left you memories and in your heart she’s irreplaceable.

Scrolling through my cellphone
Using my dummy account
Watching people who are desperate to find that one person they want to spend with the rest of their lives.
I just smiled in one corner and this realization hit me.
They are all lost and want to be happy.
At some point, others are pretentious
No good intentions…
However, I feel sad because the one who I thought would never broke me, broke me…
I can’t take him off my head
He just keep on messing it.
I hate this feeling.
I trusted someone I thought would never betray me.
I can’t force him to love me
Maybe we’re not just for each other, I guess.
I have no regrets though because at the smallest period of time, I have him and he never turn me down
He believes in me when no one else can.
And luckily, I get to know his little world. Know that I decided to leave because I can’t stand seeing you happy with someone else. I was truly hurt but now I’m signing off. Thank you for being a part of my history. Even if it means you’re happy without me.

Have you ever wonder why you keep on searching for somebody to love you when in fact, you got you. I mean, we waste time on doing something that might hurt us in the end but we have a choice. We don’t need to be stuck somewhere and think that the world don’t love us. However, we never ask ourselves what we truly deserve. We just give, give and give till there’s nothing left and now, who will save you? You alone, right? We keep on chasing the wrong people in our lives where we never see the importance of loving ourselves. Please choose you and what belongs to you will find you. It’s fine if we get lost sometimes. It’s part of the process.

Dear Boss Baby,
            I don’t know how to start. I don’t remember when I said hello or  your first response. All I know, I was amazed by the winter snow that you sent to me. I wish to be under the mistletoe with someone I want to love for the rest of my life. We both introduce ourselves but still my attention was on the pictures that you sent  It captured my heart and that in so much surprise, I asked you if I can visit your place and you said yes. With my stupefaction I replied, “That’s too fast.” You replied back and said I am the one who wants it. I get startled and I went panting. I asked myself, “Did I messed up again? Oh Lord forgive me, I never use my brain. I just want to experience the winter break.” Little by little, we’ve known each other. We’re like two desperate people who wants to be found. Maybe not you, maybe it’s me, maybe none of us but I’m glad we meet through internet. I don’t believe in internet love but the connection is real and I want to know you more and more. And I wanted you to know that I’m a wife a material. The one that you’re looking for but I don’t think I pass the requirements.
           You told me that there is so much to life. You told me that there’s nothing wrong about me. You reminded me of my hopes and dreams. And I could not ask for more than to be better each day. Thank you for believing in me when no one else can. You inspire me and I always wake up with a smile. No words really hit me this hard but the realization and now I’m bringing the best out of me. This isn’t about winning or losing. It’s about the passion that I’m making. I can’t thank you enough but I’m grateful you came in even at the shortest period of time. I’m a hapless devotee, my boss baby.
            I want you to know that I love your flaws, your imperfections and everything about you. The way you giggled, smile, laugh or talk. Please stop being so cute because you’re giving me so much butterflies. Please don’t. I repeat don’t. I am always flattered by you. In my eyes you are handsome. You are in every way. Did I just giggled? Yeah I did. Me and the nicknames—boss baby or red. As long as I can make you smile, the little things matter. I’m wishing you all the happiness you deserve. And if ever we’re not meant to be together, fight for me and I’ll fight for you. If we don’t have the chance to be together in the future, pushed through and save me. No ifs and buts. Let’s choose us. Did you just laugh while reading this? Of course you do. We make our own destiny. I may not always be reachable but I’m faithful. I’m madly, crazy in love with you. I don’t know what love means or how to define it through words but the action speaks louder. We don’t need reasons to fall in love just like how we hate some people in our lives. Love can’t be explained or made by so many theories but we’ll make our own definition of love. Know that while I’m here far away from you and wishing you were here next to me. I am always in your heart. There you’ll find me, sculpted and engraved. I hope that you continue loving yourself and make peace with your past or whatever that burdens  you.  I love you for every beat of my heart.

Love,

Lost Jellyfish

By Little Mushroom

In one corner I saw a man with a book on his hands.
He is reading solemnly as I wonder, “What could it be?”
I’m amazed of his sanity.

His silence filled me with astonishment and admiration.
It delights me for no reason.
I’m dumbfounded by his light when he asked me what I want in life.

Through time, he unveiled me his vulnerability, and it interests me.
He writes a poem that touches soul with his own creativity.
I marvel if it’s an escape to reality in one’s leisure time called hobby.

How can I raise a question, “Excuse me?” when he’s with books all day.
“I’m an open book.” he answered me, and it tickled my heart obviously.
Then I called him names “Boss Baby”, he giggled repeatedly.

I enjoy his company really undeniably.
I want to see him personally, but he is too far from me,
He captivates me in ways no soul ever will, and I can’t thank him enough for it.